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fanfic: Letting Go

Happy birthday jooles34! Thought you might like a little Lester/Connor fic. I'm afraid there's no smut, but there is some shower sharing involved :-)

Title: Letting Go
Author: Athene
Fandom: Primeval
Pairing/characters: Lester/Connor
Rating: 12
Warnings: Angst
Spoilers: None
Disclaimer: Not mine. ITV and Impossible Pictures own them.
Word count: approx 990
Summary: Every time he closed his eyes, the images were there.

The hot water cascaded down onto his body, and Lester closed his eyes. All he wanted to do was relax, but even now he was home, his brain wouldn’t shut down. Every time he closed his eyes, the images were there.

He turned the dial on the shower a little more, and the spray increased, pounding down onto his shoulders and chest so hard that it hurt. As he watched, his skin started to turn pink and steam swirled around him, condensing on the sides of the shower cubicle and running in rivulets down the patterned glass. The back of his throat burned with every breath.

And still it wasn’t enough.

Five fucking people. One of them hadn’t even been part of the field team, wasn’t even supposed to have been near any creatures. And yet her blood was still streaked across the floor and walls of the science lab when Lester had finally left several hours later. Her blood was still soaked into his other clothes, the ones he had been wearing when he went to work that morning, the ones he had been wearing when he had found himself trying to stem the flow of blood while Becker and his men fought a running battle through the corridors of the ARC.

Lester shook his head, trying to will the images away.

Abruptly, the shower cubicle door opened, and a blast of cooler air hit him. Lester shivered, and turned to glare at Connor. The young man glared right back, and reached into the shower and turned the dial back down a little, before he shoved his way into the cubicle and closed the door most of the way behind him.

“Does the concept of privacy mean nothing to you?” Lester sighed, but his voice was devoid of any anger or sarcasm. He wanted to snap, wanted to use his words like others used a knife, but right then he just... couldn’t.

Connor shuffled until he was behind him, and then Lester felt hands settle on his shoulders, and Connor’s thumbs begin to rub little circles on the back of his neck. For a moment he tried to pull away, but Connor held on and tugged him back, and the shower was too small to really get away anyway and they both knew it.

Connor’s thumbs resumed their work, gentle at first, and then slowly pressing harder as they sought out the knots of tension and tight muscles. Lester had known it was a while since he had last truly relaxed, but he hadn’t realised just how tightly wound he had become over the last few weeks. Not until Connor’s deceptively strong hands were there; kneading, rubbing, fingers softly circling and stroking skin until Lester’s head dropped and he reached out and placed his hands flat on the tiled walls in front of him and simply closed his eyes again and let Connor work.

“It wasn’t you fault,” Connor said. His voice was quiet, and yet sounded too loud in the enclosed space.

The images resurfaced, and Lester squeezed his eyes closed even tighter, knowing it wouldn’t do a damn bit of good.

Connor was right; what had happened today wasn’t his fault. But it was his responsibility. The lives of everyone in the ARC were his responsibility.

Lester didn’t ever want to forget that fact.

A particularly tight knot sent a sharp stab of pain through his shoulder, and Lester hissed. Connor hesitated, and then very gently rubbed the spot again, gradually applying more pressure until the sharp pain was replaced by a dull ache as the muscles finally let go.

Lester head a soft moan, only belatedly realising he was the one who had made the sound.

He felt Connor’s breath on his back, and then Connor kissed the spot he had just been working on, his lips lingering even as his hands stroked down Lester’s back.

“Stop thinking,” Connor whispered. “Just let go, James.”

Lester wished it was so easy.

Connor sighed, and Lester could almost hear the frustration in his huff of breath.

Connor resumed his ministrations, and Lester’s ribs and spine received the same treatment as his shoulders had. For someone normally so clumsy, Connor’s hands made no mistake now. Every knot and ache melted away beneath his touch. Wherever he finished working and moved on, the nerve endings cried out for more of his attention. And no matter how much Lester didn’t want to let go, he was powerless to resist the effect of Connor’s skilful touch on him. He lost track of time, and his mind finally began to drift. The water hitting his skin was now soothing where Connor’s hands had already been, a warm caress instead of a scorching punishment.

Connor’s fingers finally returned to his neck, and then up into his hair, massaging his scalp until Lester felt himself overbalancing as drowsiness overtook his limbs.

“Hey,” Connor murmured, his arms wrapping around Lester’s waist and supporting him. “I think maybe it’s time I took you to bed.”

They stumbled out of the shower together. Lester tried to shake some life back into his lethargic limbs, but didn’t quite manage to reach the large fluffy towel before Connor got to it. Nevertheless, when Connor flung the towel around Lester and tried to dry him Lester snatched it away and made it quite clear that he wasn’t entirely incapable thank you very much. Connor just watched him for a few moments, before he retrieved another towel, and they dried themselves in a not uncomfortable silence.

As soon as they were in bed, Connor snuggled up to Lester, his arms worming their way around him, and his head nestling on Lester’s chest. Lester slipped an arm around Connor and pulled him a little closer, and placed a soft kiss onto his damp hair.

Thank you.

This time, when Lester closed his eyes, there was only darkness and welcome sleep.

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samueljames From: samueljames Date: October 31st, 2011 10:15 pm (UTC) (Link)
Lovely fic. Love Connor taking care of Lester and loved him noticing that his lover needed him.
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: October 31st, 2011 10:38 pm (UTC) (Link)
thanks. Even Lester needs a bit of comfort sometimes, he just needs to let Connor give him that comfort.
jooles34 From: jooles34 Date: October 31st, 2011 10:24 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh, meep, oh the poor boys. This is just gorgeous, thank you so much. Poor broken Lester, but Connor is just so perfect at looking after him. A lovely look at the two of them; thank you.
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: October 31st, 2011 10:40 pm (UTC) (Link)
Happy birthday!

This actually turned out rather more angsty, and rather less smutty than I thought it was going to be. Oops? I thught you might like a slightly broken Lester, though, with or without smut!
freddiejoey From: freddiejoey Date: October 31st, 2011 10:27 pm (UTC) (Link)

Wet and hot for a steamy Qld morning!
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: October 31st, 2011 10:41 pm (UTC) (Link)
thanks. It was supposed to be shower porn, but then failed a little on the 'porn' part of shower!porn!
knitekat From: knitekat Date: October 31st, 2011 11:16 pm (UTC) (Link)
Lovely h/c with a slightly broken Lester. Yay for Connor being right there when he was needed. *purrs*
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: November 1st, 2011 11:06 pm (UTC) (Link)
thanks. Poor Lester, he needed Connor, no matter how much he doesn't want to admit it.
cynicalshoes From: cynicalshoes Date: November 1st, 2011 03:00 am (UTC) (Link)
Oh, Lester :( Glad Connor knew what to do.
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: November 1st, 2011 11:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
thanks. Poor Lester, but Connor will make him feel better.
From: mayakitten Date: November 1st, 2011 05:09 am (UTC) (Link)
Aw, Connor was so sweet!

*hugs Lester*
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: November 1st, 2011 11:08 pm (UTC) (Link)
I think they both need hugs, but Connor knows how to look after Lester when he needs it.
fredbassett From: fredbassett Date: November 1st, 2011 10:30 am (UTC) (Link)
Aw, that's lovely :)

Poor Lester.
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: November 1st, 2011 11:09 pm (UTC) (Link)
Makes a nice change for Connor to be the one giving the comfort, instead of being the one who needs it.
nietie From: nietie Date: November 1st, 2011 03:03 pm (UTC) (Link)
Beautiful comfort after a disastrous day.
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: November 1st, 2011 11:09 pm (UTC) (Link)
thanks. It wasn't a good day for any of them, but Connor will look after him.
jaynedoll From: jaynedoll Date: November 1st, 2011 05:42 pm (UTC) (Link)
That's lovely, it's always nice to see Lester being taken care of for a change.
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: November 1st, 2011 11:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
thanks. Yes, it does make a nice change to see Connor giving comfort to lester, instead of the other way round.
telperion_15 From: telperion_15 Date: November 1st, 2011 07:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
Awwwwwwwwwwww... *wibble* Poor James - luckily, he's got Connor!
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: November 1st, 2011 11:12 pm (UTC) (Link)
thanks. Yes, Connor will look after him, although of course, Lester would never admit that he actually *needed* looking after...
lukadreaming From: lukadreaming Date: November 1st, 2011 08:09 pm (UTC) (Link)
Lovely snuggly angst!
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: November 1st, 2011 11:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
thanks. There was supposed to be smut, but the boys decided to go angsty rather than smutty on me, unfortunately.
tay_21 From: tay_21 Date: November 1st, 2011 08:44 pm (UTC) (Link)
Wow that was lovely. Angsty, but really lovely. Poor boys. *huggles them*
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: November 1st, 2011 11:14 pm (UTC) (Link)
You know me and when it comes to angst *evil grin*. And it made a nice change to have Connor be the one giving the comfort instead of being the one who needs comforting.
auntypam From: auntypam Date: November 1st, 2011 11:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm glad Lester has Connor to help him forget for a while:)
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: November 1st, 2011 11:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thy do make a surprisingly good pair together. They'll look after each other when they need it.
phoebezu From: phoebezu Date: November 2nd, 2011 02:57 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh! So sweet! :) Lovely fic!
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: November 4th, 2011 08:09 pm (UTC) (Link)
thanks, glad you liked it. Those two do hurt/comfort so well.
mermaidstarfish From: mermaidstarfish Date: November 2nd, 2011 03:04 pm (UTC) (Link)
Aww poor Lester, lucky Connor knows what he needs. Great fic.
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: November 4th, 2011 08:12 pm (UTC) (Link)
thanks, Lester needs his Connor sometimes.
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