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ficlet: Not Okay - athene
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ficlet: Not Okay

Another one from the ficlet prompts (and the damned things are *definitely* getting longer!). I am working through them, and I'll write them all eventually, honest. Anyway, this one's for fredbassett , and turned out rather more angsty than I'd originally been aiming for...

Title: Not Okay
Author: Athene
Fandom: Primeval
Characters: Ryan/Connor
Rating: 18                    
Warnings: smut
Spoilers: none
Word count: 440
Disclaimer: Not mine. ITV and Impossible Pictures own them.
AN: written for fredbassett with the prompt ‘against the wall’.
  

          Connor had been quiet all the way home. Quiet, and radiating an uncharacteristic tension.

            Ryan didn’t comment. He had enough going on in his head after spending the best part of 48 hours stuck on the wrong side of an intermittently opening and closing anomaly. 48 hours of constant tension and fear and practically no sleep until it reopened and he stumbled back through and into Connor’s arms. His mind was focussed on the achievable goals of a shower and sleep, not necessarily in that order. Anything else could wait until later.

            His flat door was barely closed when Connor abruptly shoved him against the wall and held him there while he stole a desperate, needy kiss. When Connor finally stopped he let his head drop to rest on Ryan’s shoulder, and murmured something that Ryan couldn’t hear properly.

            “Connor?” he asked quietly. 

            Connor’s hands slipped around Ryan’s waist and started untucking his t-shirt and caressing the skin beneath.

            “Connor? It’s okay. I’m back.”

            “It’s not okay,” Connor whispered without looking up. His voice was thick with emotion that Ryan couldn’t even begin to interpret. But when he tried to lift Connor’s face to see what was going on in those dark eyes that usually told everything that his clever mind couldn’t put into words, Connor pulled away.

            Without warning, Connor dropped to his knees and ripped Ryan’s jeans open with an anger and savagery that took Ryan by surprise. He knew he ought to stop this, to find out what the hell was going on in Connor’s mind. But then Connor took Ryan’s cock in his mouth and Ryan let his head roll back against the wall behind him and let the sensations carry away all the fear and uncertainty of the last two days. There was none of Connor’s normal hesitancy or gentleness. This was hard, fast, and even more desperate than the kiss had been, and Ryan was coming hard into Connor’s mouth within moments.

            Connor still wasn’t looking at him, but after a moment he rested his forehead against Ryan’s hip, still on his knees. Ryan tentatively reached a hand out and started to stroke Connor’s hair.

            “I thought you’d died,” Connor said, the unmistakeable hitch of a sob in his voice. “I thought you weren’t coming back.”

            Ryan continued to stroke him, his throat tightening.

            “I came back, Connor. I’m here,” he said, trying to sound reassuring.

            He watched Connor’s back and shoulders move as he breathed slowly and deeply for a moment.

            “Don’t do that to me again, Ryan.”

            Ryan continued to stroke Connor’s hair, and wished he had the reply that Connor wanted to hear. 

             



 


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fififolle From: fififolle Date: May 9th, 2010 08:17 am (UTC) (Link)
God!! That was desperate. A-MA-ZING.

*faints*
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: May 9th, 2010 08:33 am (UTC) (Link)
*searches for the smelling salts*

Thanks. Poor boys, I'm being mean to them again.
From: sallycandance Date: May 9th, 2010 08:18 am (UTC) (Link)
Great! Love the angst - and of course the smut (goes without saying *g*).
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: May 9th, 2010 08:35 am (UTC) (Link)
Thanks. it was supposed to be mostly smut, but went all angsty on me the more I thought about it.
jaynedoll From: jaynedoll Date: May 9th, 2010 08:18 am (UTC) (Link)
Desperate pushy Connor is a good thing *g*
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: May 9th, 2010 08:36 am (UTC) (Link)
oh, definitely. He should be pushy and desperate and needy far more often
munchkinofdoom From: munchkinofdoom Date: May 9th, 2010 09:01 am (UTC) (Link)
Ooooooooo!! That last line is a killer. And dark and angry Connor is wonderful...
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: May 9th, 2010 09:20 am (UTC) (Link)
I though this one might be up your street *grin*. I don't think Ryan would want to lie to Connor about the fact that probably one day he won't come home, and I suspect deep down Connor knows it himself, he just doesn't want to admit it.
lukadreaming From: lukadreaming Date: May 9th, 2010 10:07 am (UTC) (Link)
Eek! Angry and desperate Connor is verrry yummy!
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: May 9th, 2010 10:50 am (UTC) (Link)
mmm, yes, I do like him when he's angry and demanding.
telperion_15 From: telperion_15 Date: May 9th, 2010 10:23 am (UTC) (Link)
*wibble meep whimper*

What was that you were saying to me the other day about beating people with the angst stick? *eg*
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: May 9th, 2010 10:52 am (UTC) (Link)
Hee! Yep, the angst stick is definitely prepped and ready to go. Besides, I let them have that little bit of fluffy fun with the muddy ditch ficlet last weekend, so they were overdue for ANGST and PAIN again.
echo_fangirl From: echo_fangirl Date: May 9th, 2010 11:21 am (UTC) (Link)
Wibble. :( Poor boys!
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: May 9th, 2010 11:46 am (UTC) (Link)
thanks, I am beating them with the ansgt stick again, I'm afraid.
joereaves From: joereaves Date: May 9th, 2010 11:32 am (UTC) (Link)
Awwww, poor Conn and poor Ryan, knowing he can't make that promise.
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: May 9th, 2010 11:49 am (UTC) (Link)
I think they've both been forcibly reminded of the perils of being in a relationship with a soldier, poor boys. And much as Ryan wants to protect Conor, he won't make promises that he knows he might not be able to keep.
prehistoriccat From: prehistoriccat Date: May 9th, 2010 11:33 am (UTC) (Link)
Connor whumping again? hehehe ... between you and alyse, I am slowing turning over to the dark side of slash too - damn you!!!!

Angsty desperate Connor is definitely a bit of a turn on ;)
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: May 9th, 2010 11:52 am (UTC) (Link)
Connor!whumping? Moi? Oh, okay, yeah I am *evil grin*. Connor is far too pretty when he's broken and angsty, I just can't resist a bit of Connor!angst.

between you and alyse, I am slowing turning over to the dark side of slash too - damn you!!!!

LOL, come over to the dark side, we have pretty men and angst (and lots of Connor!whumping and hurt/comfort).
bigtitch From: bigtitch Date: May 9th, 2010 01:37 pm (UTC) (Link)
Awwww. At least Connor's using his best persuasive tactics to get Ryan coming home to him!
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: May 9th, 2010 01:42 pm (UTC) (Link)
yep, that's one hell of an incentive to come back home again.
canadian_jay From: canadian_jay Date: May 9th, 2010 03:01 pm (UTC) (Link)
D: Poor Connor!

(And yum, too.)
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: May 9th, 2010 04:27 pm (UTC) (Link)
thanks. Poor boys, I was beating them with the angst stick again.
reggietate From: reggietate Date: May 9th, 2010 03:04 pm (UTC) (Link)
Like...wow... Seriously heavy :-)

Without warning, Connor dropped to his knees and ripped Ryan’s jeans open with an anger and savagery that took Ryan by surprise. He knew he ought to stop this, to find out what the hell was going on in Connor’s mind. But then Connor took Ryan’s cock in his mouth and Ryan let his head roll back against the wall behind him and let the sensations carry away all the fear and uncertainty of the last two days. There was none of Connor’s normal hesitancy or gentleness. This was hard, fast, and even more desperate than the kiss had been, and Ryan was coming hard into Connor’s mouth within moments.

This bit is great.

Really must make a Connor/Ryan icon...
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: May 9th, 2010 04:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
thanks. With this pairing I usully tend to write fic where Connor gets in danger and Ryan is the one worrying, but sometimes it's nice to turn the tables and see how Connor copes with being the one left worrying. Or, in this case, how he *doesn't* cope.
eriah211 From: eriah211 Date: May 9th, 2010 03:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
Awesome! Angsty and touching. Poor Connor!And poor Ryan too *hugs the boys*
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: May 9th, 2010 04:31 pm (UTC) (Link)
thanks. I think they both need a hug after this.
From: madcatt82 Date: May 9th, 2010 04:10 pm (UTC) (Link)
Ooooh, angry, desperate Connor is yummy! And the last line is brilliant... chilling, but brilliant!
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: May 9th, 2010 04:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
thanks. Glad the last line worked like that, Connor should know better than to ask Ryan for a promise that he can't keep.
nietie From: nietie Date: May 9th, 2010 04:52 pm (UTC) (Link)
Meep! I have a feeling Ryan is right about not being able to promise that he won't that again.
Wonderful smutty angst.
deinonychus_1 From: deinonychus_1 Date: May 9th, 2010 07:10 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks. Yep, that's one promise that Ryan can't make *hugs the boys*.
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